I’m tired. is it just summer fatigue?
I decided to do what is most difficult for me – DO NOTHING (or as little as possible).
for the next two months I won’t take on new projects, other than the ones I’m already committed to. for the next two months I’ll slow down. I’ll say no – politely as possible (it’s nobodys fault I’m in that mood…), and just stay with what is. I won’t make major plans of any kind, I’ll observe, and most importantly I won’t worry, I won’t engage myself with all my usual ‘what-ifs’ – I’m sending all my gremlins away on vacation in a far far place.
I’ll finish my work earlier than I’m used to and lay in the back yard, looking at the sky, eating grapes and other summer treats, thinking of nothing, and every thing. If I’ll find myself thinking negative thoughts, I’ll press the cold bottle of beer against my cheek and whisper to my self: just for now…. just for now…
Just for now, without asking how, let yourself sink into stillness.
Just for now, lay down the weight you so patiently
bear upon your shoulders.
Feel the earth receive you,
and the infinite expanse of sky grow even wider
as your awareness reaches up to meet it.
Just for now, allow a wave of breath to enliven your experience.
whatever blocks you from the truth.
Just for now, be
boundless, free, awakened
energy tingling in your hands and feet.
Drink in the possibility of being
who and what you really are
so fully alive that when you open your eyes
the world looks different,
newly born and vibrant, just for now.
a poem by Danna Faulds